I have had these really weird feelings lately that make me moody and no one really wants to be around me. I googled the crap out of it last night, I am about 90% positive I am suffering from anxiety. I feel as though this is common for people my age and in my position. I read that anxiety is caused from feelings of uncertainty - that is EXACTLLY what it is for me. I am a cronic worry wart, always have been. I have notice the past couple of weeks this constant feeling of stress and worry but no ambition at all to do anything about it. I wish there was some way to fix this but I don't know how. I pray to God that I am not having a chemical imbalance depression like my mom, the last thing I want to do is be stuck on medication for the rest of my life - I think the anxiety I am feeling will go away once I get stuff for Oakland all figured out (ie classes, where im staying, ect) On a side note, I need a boyfriend. Like legit. You know I usually shy away from saying that cause I usually dont want a boyfriend, but I havent dated a guy in almost a year, I havent "talked" to a guy in maybe 3 months, it's just really odd for me. I usually do not have a problem with this, obviously Bay City is drying up. NOTE TO SELF NEVER TAKE ONLINE CLASSES EVER THE FUCK AGAIN. I really hate my online classes - I wish I didn't because I love my class schedule. You know, I would just love to be a bum in general, no obligations just living. You know, I wouldn't mind being someones personal maid or assistant, in fact I would probably love it. How you get into that kind of business I have no idea. Hmm I just am so lost as in to what I want to do with my life. I am passionate about few things, poms, music, friends, adventures and nature. How that I can lead to a career i have no idea. My eyes hurt, I really like talking. You know maybe journalism is something I want to do. It has always been in the back of my mind but I don't know. My eyes hurt and the wind is being scarry :x the whole house is cracking time to go take cover!