I'm out of love. I wanna love. Will I love? What is love? How do you know love when you find it? Will I find it? I don't think that I will ever let the right guy in and that scares me. I see nice boys and nice boys see me and I think I could give them a change but I probably will never do that.

To A Boy Who Sucks

To Cody Badgley, the boy who plays with everyones emotions. I want you to know That I like you so And ill be around For when you fall down From that cloud You sit upon Where you lay awake And dream of bigger things Bigger than me and you Bigger than you and i Bigger than the whole sky I just wanna be That girl for you The one who pulls down stars And holds planets close to her heart To find you there in the cloud Where you lay awake And dream of bigger things Bigger than me and you Bigger than you and I Bigger than the whole sky I want you know I think you’re a joke Not in a way that is cute and nice But in a way that could potentially hurt you You really suck and I hate to say it But playing with a girls heart is not a fun game You make keep us around so you can feel “okay” That is wrong and you deserve to sit on a cloud And dream of things that you will NEVER accomplish Because you suck. Sincerely, Samantha Cathcart - the girl you were once smitten for.

I have been having a ridiculous "life" lately. I work at a shitty Chipotle, I have an amazing boyfriend and some of the best friends I have ever had. BAM like a freight train though, my best friend asks me to move to LA with him.. I have no idea what to do. It isn't until forever but STILL FUCKING LA!? It'd be so amazing and I could so find something that I really want to do with my life.. which is I have no idea but I feel like a big city with fake bitches and real bitches would help. I love this city and I love everything about MI but I need to live. It's just come to my attention that live in a very small bubble and I haven't been living like I should. I'll get this figured out I know I will.