Random Stuff

One day while doing my homework I caame up with these, they are in the developing stages still but I thought I would type them out now.

Lately, I've been thinkin' maybe
Your'e the one who tells me how to respond
to everything I'm asked and everything I', not asked
You are the one who is controlling moi.
I just stand back to watch the show
progress in an orderly fashion.
I'll pop some popcorn and grab an Arnold
and watch you put on a show.

You think your'e fat, you think your'e fab
you think you're the hottest shit on the block
Sorry to tell you this but
New Kids already claimed that title

... so that is that :P It's kind of cocky and childish but I like it okay here is the other one

Bittersweet is the word I want to use
don't be thinkin' to obtuse
when it comes to us
I know the miles are far
and the conversation is short, baby
I wanna see you move closer to me
I wanna see you move closer to me

I'll prbly work on that one later, if I was musically inclined I would totally add some guitar to that . hmm whatever I am just gunna add on to it maybe tonight.


p.s. today is the day no one will ever forget 9/11/01. All day I have been watching stories about the accounts from this tragic day. Some days we forget about this day in history that changed our lives forever. My favorite quote that I heard today was from Conda Liza Rice and she said "After September 11th everyday was September 12th".

Requirements

I saw this on someone else's blog and I thought it would be amusing and keep me from not doing my school work. So here it is, if I were to create the man of my dreams here is how he would be:

-He makes cute faces. (i.e. like scrunches it up when he is embarrassed or does a total face palm when he says something stupid)

-Doesn't text me 24/7 because that just gets repetitive and annoying.

-Has a goal in mind, in regards to his future.

-Has his own personality and doesn't try to mimic mine.

-He can make decisions for the two of us because God knows I can't.

-Doesn't want to kiss me every minute of everyday, or whenever in we are in public he has to be constantly holding my hand or have his arm around me. Sorry kids, I am not a big lover of excessive PDA.

-No we do not need to hangout every day, every other day is fine though.

-A phone is not used for JUST texting, you can call me to it's okay!

-Doesn't buy me gifts. (Is it weird I hate getting presents from people)

-Is as completely untraditional as I am, or will at least go along with it.

-Ummm, he should probably be an optimist because I find pessimistic are really a downer.

-Has his own hobbies and just things in general to do on his own so I am not his main time consumer.

-He has his own friends and own life separate from mine.

-Has a wonderful family that is just super goofy.

-Is a goof, who enjoys making inside jokes with me and laughing at anything and everything.

I could make this list go on forever and it already has occupied a good amount of my time so maybe I will add on later. :)

"even though you're miles away, you never cease to make me smile"

Your smile could light up the world when everything has turned to darkness.

You make me want to forget everything bad in the world.

You make we want to never stop smiling or at least until my face hurts to much.

I want to hold you but the miles between us are making that hard.

The miles between us though will never stop us from being what we are.

Everyday is Valentines Day in our world, making every day the best day ever.

You make me happy whether you like it or not
It has been not even a week since i first laid eyes on you and yet i feel like i am falling completely in love. sometime i feel completely stupid about how strong my feelings are for you but they are true. the nicest person to walk this earth is you and i am truly blessed to have ever met you. hopefully this continues on, you are to important to lose and to hard to forger <3

T-shirt

Once we break free from that comfy t-shirt we have the ability and freedom to try on any t-shirt we want. It may be an awkward fitting one, or one that is too lose and you just are not so sure about. Then you may just find that perfect fit and you may not change out of it until you find that it is time to change.


Never let anyone hold you back from what you think is right, what your gut feeling tells you to do. I have learned from experience that your gut feeling is just your heart trying to get your attention. Listen to it, it may know you better than you know yourself.

Well I have been thinking a lot about "us" where we have been, how we used to be, how I used to feel about everything that involved you. In time all of these things have changed everything between us. At one point I even hated you for so many reasons, I didn't even know were true or not. So I find myself today, almost two years from when all of this started, thinking "how can I let him go?". He changed so much of me, made me the individual I am today. For that, I feel as though I owe him. Don't get me wrong, he still means the world to me, but after all the shit he has put me threw I can never see "us" being what we were. We were truly the couple everyone thought would last forever. He made one little mistake, by breaking us apart over a year ago. Since that day, everything had changed. "Us", them, everyone. I looked at everything different, everything as a golden opportunity, knowing it was prbly to good to be true. From that day on, NOTHING between us would ever be the same. He thought I was immature, I thought he was immature. Truth was we were BOTH pretty adolescent. Not saying being almost 18 I am all matured, because that would be a lie. So here I am again, in a situation that is oh so familiar. I sit here typing away because I am so UNDECIDED. It seems that at once 4 AMAZING guys are thrown at me, but he stands out in a crowd. I don't know what it is about him that keeps me coming back. THOUGH there is that voice in my head saying "you know he is no good, no one will be at all happy two are dating, he is gunna treat you like shit, you are gunna be let down" So it is more of a fight with myself. Do i let him walk all over me, or do I stand up for myself and tell him straight up that THIS is never going to happen EVER again. That as long as we stay in touch and being 'friends' I will never be more than a friend. Then my heart thumps really loud and the other side of it telling me "he was the best thing that had ever walked into your life, dont let him get away" I guess with time i will see what happens, but for now I am stuck in a moment of confusion and frustration.

chance

The frustration you have brought upon me
is tearing down all the walls around me
This feeling has always been there
but for who, I don't care
All i want to do is love
or even to be cared about
though you always seems to come right back
and think you can have another chance
your chances are done
third time is not a charm
I have contemplated every move
every opportunity
every emotion
that seem to swell when you make your move
i keep my cool and avoid the confrontation
but all you wanna do is say you've changed
and there is no way
no how
no chance
Have you changed in 8 months?
I do not believe that is possible
you have more than one personality
hopefully you have been correcting them
unfortuantley i am completely convinced you are unaware
of your own faults that i see
so take a chance, listen to me
that would be a first and something so amazing to me
to see you realize all your faults
all the things that are weighing you down
take a chance for someone and breathe it all in
because one day you are going to realize
you have been handed enough chances.




i have been to frustrated.. it was time to just let my fingers dance across my keyboard and come up with something sloppy.